"As much as it kills me this shit gives me an edge sometimes. Every time it comes over me I am awakening. I AM BECOMING WHO I NEVER BECAME and I want to stay with it as long as I can. When I get amplified all those nasty feelings turn into gold... When you've been touched by your own endings, you know the REAL LIFE when you finally feel it coming through. I've started to REALise the joy is IN THE MAKING, NOT IN what's made."